My Obsession Pt.1

Whoever knows me, I mean really really knows me, would know that I'm so deeply in love with high tech gadgets, well apart from my books. I can do without golds or diamonds or fashionable clothing or even branded handbags. I don't mind not having Louis Vutton or Gucci or even Prada. No thank you to Tiffany or 916 gold or platinum diamond ring. But I can't sleep properly without at least one high tech gadgets in my possession.

Well since I'm not a millionaire, I couldn't afford to be buying all the high tech gadget most of times hence I just make do with what I can afford.

I have a Blackberry Bold II  and when Blackberry Touch II has been introduce, I just keep myself calm because that Bold is actually a gift so I told myself to shut up and be happy. Well I am happy, I got it for free, didn't I.

Then I got Vaio net book for my birthday and I was ecstatic. The Dell laptop that we've been having since year 2001 is like a dinosaur now, the RAM is so slow and the battery cannot be used anymore. We have to connect it to plug it to the power

Now, Ipad II is out. I'm going crazy over this item. I mean really really couldn't stop thinking about it. It is a cool stuff.

Why do I need one when I have Vaio?

Well, for me Vaio is more for formal, work related stuffs. If I need to do work from home, finished up my report, then Vaio would be the best choice since it has MsOffice installed in it.

Whereas for Ipad, is more for entertainment. For browsing, playing games, or reading blog.

Just wait for it, I shall own it one day.

I'm Nobody! Who Are You? by Emily Dickinson

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us -- don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

Second Chance - Jane Green

I've finished another book last Saturday, Second Chance by Jane Green. I've been having this book since 2009, if I'm not mistaken. I bought it online during one of my book mania shopping spree. Since it is softcover book, it is easy for me to carry in my handbag.

The Story :
Holly, Olivia, Paul, and Saffron are mourning the death of their close friend Tom. They were all close friends when they were school mates in London, but now they are in their late thirties and are all in various stages of life and relationships. Most of them haven't seen each other in years and had mainly kept in contact with each other through Tom.

Holly is fairly wealthy, has two adorable kids, and an unhealthy relationship with her distant lawyer husband. Olivia is single after dating a man for the better part of a decade and runs an animal shelter. Paul is married to the beautiful and successful Anna, but they have been unable to have children which is making Anna miserable. Finally, Saffron is becoming a successful movie star and is moving on up, but her relationship with a very famous star who is married could bring her ruin.
Tom was always there for each one of them and because of his death, they are all reuniting once again. And maybe because of Tom, they will all get their second chance at happiness.

This is book is a bit similar to Maeve Binchy style where it is about a group of friends reconvened after a death of one of their friends. It is however, this plot is more focus on Holly as the main character though Tom's incident actually brought them back together. And the ending is a bit surprising where I thought she would be together with Will but it didn't happen because of Will's commitment phobic.

Somethings just never gonna be forgotten...

I stayed in UK in 1997-1998 and basically it is fun to be able to travel. I was actually ecstatic when my boss back then told me that I will be the hostess in one of the resorts in UK. It was totally a new experience for me. I fell in love with their country side, cottages, fresh air in the morning and the sunday market especially. Loves the afternoon walk that I normally take through the open fields. It is awesome and the memories still stucked in my head like a poster pasted on the wall....never gonna fall.
I just hope I could be travelling there again.

Second Lesson

I finished my second swimming lesson today. The headache is still there but on the mild side. There's some improvement in my breathing as per the instructor told. But I tend to sway too much when I paddled.
Hmmm..sway...now I felt like singing Bubble's song...hehehehe...
She showed me they correct way but it seems she does sway also....heheheh oh well...I'll just try my best not to sway too much then. And I can float also hihihihi... I'm so happy.

Lunch @ KLCC

I'm meeting my friend at KLCC for lunch and I haven't seen her for couple of months. We go way back together since we were in secondary school. Walking towards my car, my head started felt like being hammered. Damn!!! not again..not this headache. Ignoring my thump-thumping head, I drove all the way to KLCC. I remembered someone once said to me "The things that you do for your friend!!!!!" It was like an open ended statement. Can't blame the person who gives this statement nor my friends cause they didn't force me. They asked hence I agreed. Well, we went to Cafe Vienna, since I kinda had heavy breakfast, I order Apple Strudel and hot tea. Thought, it might calm my pounding head but it didn't. My friend had some pasta (which we couldn't pronounced it, not even the waitress knows how to pronounced it properly).
Next time, when I'm there I shall have the chicken dish which looks so yummy and perhaps their signature coffee as well.

Supplement for cloudy days

I'm in need of something joyful to clear my clouded mind and I could no longer depend on food as my jeans are getting tighter each day. So the other precious thing that I can turn to is my collection of unread books.
Amongst all the books I haven't read yet, I found two Carole Matthews. Something lite and does not requires me to be in deep thought to clear up my cloudy days.

Since my days are occupied with houseworks, officeworks, kids and other stuffs, I managed to get "ME TIME" only during breakfast... 30 min a day and I managed to complete reading these two books within 2 weeks.

Sometimes

Sometimes sweet things might be hazardous for you and sometimes bitter things are good for you
Sometimes we like to live for the moment and forget the impact it might have for our future.
Sometimes goodbye is good for a relationship but in our heart we know we will remain the same forever.

Rambling Again....

What's with we people....when we know we shouldn't be doing something that we shouldn't do but yet still we did it. I know I need to reduce my weight due to health reason. My bp, my cholesterol level and so on. I did manage to reduce 3 kg with exercise, drink loads of water and watching out what kind of food that I put in mouth. But now, after I sprained my ankle from exercise, I felt a bit depressed and started to eat again without thinking. And now my weight went up again...sigh!!!
I hope with this swimming routine, I will be able to reduce my weight.

Quote by Robert Dodsley

"One kind kiss before we part, Drop a tear and bid adieu; Though we sever, my fond heart; Till we meet shall pant for you."

REMEMBER by Christina Rossetti (1830-1894)

REMEMBER me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

Swim..swim..swim

After learning breathing technique, bubbling and all sorts, I was pretty excited to continue with the exercise on my own. Once I deposited my kids for their tuition class at 8pm, off I went to the swimming pool with my gears.
I dipped my head in the pool, trying to hold my breath and release it slowly. It feels great but once I emerged my head out of the pool, there was a sudden rush in my head. I felt like being hit by train. And I have this massive headache. Feels like someone hit my head with a hammer continuously. I rest by the poolside for awhile and it seems to slowly fade away. Then I continue with paddling exercise. After 30 mins (well it seems like forever) I'm out of breath. Went back, took a shower and the massive headache return. Now I can't even open my eyes.
Next morning, still feeling the same, I went and see a GP. She explain due to my flu (which I took lightly given that I'm an adult and flu shouldn't be a problem) the pressure is built up from my nose up to my head. Hence when I go for a swim, it sort of made it worst thus the massive headache.
She gave me some flu table, pain killer, muscle relaxant and an MC for the day. Went back home took all the medicines and I slept the whole day through. The worst part is everytime I shower and when the water hit my head, the headache keeps coming back. After 3 days of medication and a goon night sleep (all this while I keep on waking up at the middle of night), I finally feel better. And I can't wait to continue with my swimming lesson this coming Sunday.

First Day

I woke up pretty early on Sunday. I can't wait, it's my first day of swimming lesson. "Grin"
Yeay....I don't care if people think I'm too old to be excited for a swimming lesson because I am excited.
And scared too. While waiting for my friends to arrive, I had my breakfast at Kluang Station, mee siam, toast bun and cham ice. I know it is a lot to start with when I'm supposed to be swimming later. But I can't help it, I need to eat cause I'm nervous.
The trainer arrived on the dot to fetch us and brought us to her newly bought and built condo which is just besides the place I went for my breakfast. We started with a breathing technique of which I failed miserably because I started to panicked when she told me to exhaled under water. And I wonder how my kids manage to do it. They are so great and a fast learner. If they can do it, surely an adult female person like me should be able to do it. Thus, I think of something nice and started to relax. My other two friends are good at it.
Then,we started to learn how to float and glide. Later part we learn how to kick or do they call it splash???
Oh well, whatever it is, it was fun and I can wait to go back home later and practice.

Quotes - Charlotte Bronte

"It is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied with tranquility: they must have action; and they will make it if they cannot find it."

What A Bumpy Ride......

For the whole last week, I managed not to eat heavy food in the evening. I can't exercise yet due to swollen ankle I had. But the swelling has reduced slowly and I'm not limping as I walk though it is a bit difficult during solat. For me it is still an improvement.
The temptation is so high for me not to eat any heavy food, especially when there's left over of Nasi Goreng USA or Nasi Goreng Kampung. I'm seriously tempted so I took few scoop of it. Just for the sake of tasting it. I know as we grow older our metabolism started to slow down. Hence whatever we eat will not be digested fast enough to produce fuel to burn the energy. If we keep on eating without burning the energy, our body will stored it as body fat and that's what happening to me....yikes!!!.
I promised myself if I could control myself during the weekdays, I will reward myself on weekend with good food. And guess what???? I ate non stop on Sunday. Start with nasi lemak for brekkie, then rice with sambal fish, soup and vege for lunch and dinner.
I'm not sure what actually happen but I started purging like hell on Monday. Thereafter I got stomach cramp and I feel nausea.
I have no choice but to take medical leave. Fortunately this purging stopped later in the evening after I've taken medicine and now I'm back on feet with less food in my tummy....phew!!!

I Am Not Yours - Sara Teasdale

I am not yours, not lost in you,

Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.
You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love - put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

How Do I Love Thee? - Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of every day's

Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love with a passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

No food after 6pm.....

I successfully managed not to stuff my mouth with fatty food after 6pm. Yes, I did. Eventhough I was walking among the delectable restaurants and I can feel all those yummilicious food calling for me. But I did refrain myself from going to the restaurant.
Instead I emptied my wallet with 4 blouses....heheheheheehe
Ironically but that's the truth. Another addiction that I need to control.
Food and shopping are my biggest weaknesses. But to my defence, I do need new clothings. The last time I bought clothings were last year. Well, that's like three months ago, but still... it is quite a period of time.
Well...one step at a time. We shall see for today.