Is it just me or the day seems to be getting dull every moment?
Everyday, after sending the kids to school, I would be having my breakfast at Solaris. Toasted bread, scramble eggs and black coffee with my book.
Once I'm done with it, then off I go to work. I will be arriving around 8.15am to 8.20am.
I used to arrived at work between 7.30 am - 7.45am. Then I will be having my coffee in the office while browsing my emails. But after awhile I got bored. Totally bored with the routine and decided it will be more fun having breakfast outside. Plus the food in the office's canteen is terrible!!!!
They changed the caterer a year ago and initially the food is edible but recently after changing two cooks, the food has taken an overturn to horrible. Even a simple tea they make sometimes tasted funny.
They used to serve sandwiches, mostly tuna or egg with mayo. But now, even the bread is rarely available.
When they make scramble eggs, it tasted sweet and I wonder do they put sugar in it. And they they did!!!
Who would put sugar in their scramble egg? Or maybe this is a new style of cooking scramble egg, I wonder?.
It wasn't easy...doing sit-up after a very long rest. I tried my very best. Starting last Friday, 100x in the evening. Didn't manage to do in the morning though due to times constraint.
Someone told me it is not good to do sit up at my age. Wow!!! it does makes me feel like I'm ancient. It is for good intention, I believe. To avoid any injuries. True but it made me feel like I want to hide under the duvet and never bother to exercise anymore at all.
Naaahhh!!! I can never hide under the duvet. Got too many things to do. The kids, the housechores, the officeworks, my life and the lists go on and on.
My mind is wondering. Must have back up plan. I need to exercise. I cannot stop. The only thing I can think right now is :
1. Sit up 100x - am &pm
2. Swimming - in the process of enrolling my friends and I. Hopefully we can start this April
3. Elliptical exercise - been eyeing this equipment for sometimes. It cost about MYR4k ++ for Ogawa brand but this price is during sales !!!
My ankle still swollen a bit after 3 days. Wonder how long it takes to recover completely.
Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep - while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?
After two and half months, I have finally managed to squeeze in sometime to exercise. To convince my innerself this is what I must do in order to be healthy again. The long overdue task, my personal goal. Following the routine of kickboxing from an exercise dvd that I bought last year which I normally followed on weekly basis until there is a point of time where I'm down with fever for 4 days due to strenuous exercise and lack of rest.
There I go warming up before the cardio routine started. Stretching my body and getting ready for the heart pumping routine. Everything seems so good, all the steps are followed duly and I started sweating profusely and it feels healthy. After 30 min, suddenly I heard a sound and I found myself lying on the floor. I tripped while doing jumping jack and hurt my ankle. The pain is unbearable and immediately my thought flying to the freezer in the kitchen.
Nope I wasn't thinking about food!. I was thinking about getting ice cube for my ankle.
Ignoring the throbbing pain, I limped to the kitchen to get the ice and started dabbing it onto my ankle. It stings but I guess it work because next morning my ankle is not badly swollen and there is no bruises.
The only evidence that I have for the sprained ankle is a huge and round bump at my ankle. I can still walk but on a slow mode and I'm having difficulty to climb up or down the stairs.Off I went to see the doctor, he said, nothing is broken except for the torn muscle.
Lucky for me?....mmmmm maybe. Always look at the positive side. At least I can still walk and drive the car but no jumping for the time being.
I was thinking of going for healthy breakfast. Hence when I saw this low fat mandarin orange and cranberry muffin, I couldn't help myself. Just look at the delicious texture and you can imagine yourself devouring it without adding any inches to your waist. Ok, I sound a bit dramatic but that's who I am. It does indeed taste excellent and I had it with a cup of hot tea. Excellent set for breakfast.
One of the daily online subscribed poem that I received electronically. How easy it is nowadays without having to step into the bookstore, which I preferred given free time to do so. Unfortunately, it is not easy nowadays with all responsibilities on hand. Nevertheless, do enjoy this piece of art.
Acquainted With the Night by Robert Frost
I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain - and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
One luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have tried....my goodness I did try so very hard to resist the temptation. I can never and will never have the will not to buy another book. Because it is my blood. I still have like tonnes of book that I haven't read yet.
That is why the only way of not buying book is by not going into a bookstore. It is like an addiction for me.
The feeling of looking at the row of books infront of me everytime I went to bed is beyond explanation.
Have I gone mad or what?
Never seek to tell thy love,
Love that never told can be;
For the gentle wind does move
Silently, invisibly.
As I'm going through my work for the day, I could not help myself from thinking on what I could do differently in order to make me lose weight healthily. I need to have a checklist on what I need to do. Hence I've come out with one.
1. Plan my meal
2. Plan my exercise schedule
3. Find low calories recipes
4. Have a weight goal.
5. Execute
Well, I guess that has covered all. Dear oh dear... I hope that I can do this.
I was coming out from a conference room when one of my colleague said the most scared statement by most of the female population, "Dear, you are fat!!!". And I can vouched that the percentage of the female population that would be dreading such news would be like 99.99% . I mean, how many out there actually, does not really care how they look like. Even the guys now are into 3 steps cleansing routine which donkey years ago were only care by us female population. This is because they want to look good. We all want to look good and healthy. And people always relate healthy to being fit physically. And right now I'm not physically fit because I'm fat. And what my colleague said, is actually make sense because my pants are all tight.
When I looked back throughout the previous months, I realised that I have stopped exercising completely. Not even 10 min exercise at home or walking around the lake at all. But the only thing that keep on going is my eating habit which has grown stronger. From sandwiches and salmon steak, now I've changed to nasi biryani with chicken or fried rice and this is habit is like daily consuming. I need to do something!!!
Normally if I had chocolate, I will be having this terrible headache.
But today, it turn out differently. I cannot stop thinking about the chocolate.
It's like an addiction to me. Since my workplace is like in the middle of nowhere and I couldn't get a decent choco shop nearby hence I have to make do with whatever I can find. And the best place I could find is a 7 Eleven. Yeah!!!! thats the best I could find and it is just 7.30am. I grabbed a packet of Krispy Chocolote and I remember I have few packets of Milo in the office.
Yup, these are my indulgence of the day and thank goodness, it's the best I could find because I couldn't phantom how I would turn out to be if I were to find those chocolate that actually sells those fancy ones.
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