To be or not to be

Once I was given the opportunity to be part of the ASCM team. But I avoided it. Thought that my rusty brain could not function anymore. I mean how am I suppose be studying when I need to work and look after my family. And once in awhile I need my ME TIME. Or else, I will be under a lot of stress.
So I manage to duck and finally left that company.
Now.....the opportunity (or burden) came knocking on my door again. There was some announcement from the management about this. My boss talks about the knowledge that we could get from getting the certification and encourage us to get the certificate. We were told that we could choose to join if we were interested. I was thinking about it but it was soon forgotten when time passed by.
Suddenly one day we received the letter.
I thought we were given a choice whether to join or not. But I guess, it was never a choice after all.
Oh well, probably it could open more doors of opportunity for me once I've gotten my certification.

*Notes to myself : How can I think that my rusty brain could not function when all this while I have been solving issues for other people and cleaning up sh*t that has been left behind by other people.
Hmmm..... not bad at all eh!

Ranting

I was at my heaviest before Ramadhan. Every picture that I took,
I looks like an ageing humpty dumpty hahahahahah.
I've already accepted the way I look but I hate the way I feel.
I feel bloated and out of breath everytime I walk.
And to make things worst, every morning I woke up with a pain at my left heel.
And suddenly I'm starting to worry about my health.
When Ramadhan came, I stop my coffee intake and no sugary drinks.
It was ok for the first week. But then I started going to Ramadhan bazaar.
Oh my god, the dessert selections are killing me.
I'm ok with plain water. But I cannot resist the scrumptious selection
of local nyonya kuih, curry puff and other sugar laden local desserts.
I could go on not eating rice for a whole month but I can never ever not
eating desserts. It is my utmost weakness. So I reduced my rice intake so that I could enjoy my favorite desserts. I drank more water and the terawih prayers does help a lot.
Ramadhan is over and well I did manage to lose 4kg.
I 'm still heavy and fat but not as fat as before.